Master asked for a blowjob tonight in between posts. Instead of willingly doing so I gave him a face and said “no.” He has now requested that I blog about why I said no.

I’m not supposed to say no, I’m supposed to be willing to do anything to please Master whenever he wishes. It’s a part of my personal submissive ethics . I am supposed to be working towards acceptance of all things sexual with Master and yet I still said no. I gave him a lame excuse.

“I’ve been planning this event (blogathon) for months now, you knew that. I don’t want to give you a blowjob, what if I can’t get you off by the time I have to post?”

What kind of excuse is that. I really need to learn my lesson. He looked so hurt and yet didn’t say anything. I think I would have learned faster had he said something about it.

Master I’m sorry. I will work harder at accepting your desires for my sexual use. I have no right to say now to you. You are my world, my Master. I shall worship you with heart, soul and body. Forever.

–luna